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[american_alien]

So I thought I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I worked really hard to get to where I am and what I'm doing but...

After talking to people, talking to lots of people from all over, I'm not so sure anymore. I think I might have been thinking too small, but it feels weird to think of it like that. Like I'm limited MYSELF, if that makes any sense. I mean, it's not like we have a lot of money and I worked really hard to get the scholarships to get here in the first place.

But I'm not sure if I'm just letting this trip run away with me or if I'm finally seeing more clearly now that I've actually gone out and seen just how big the world is.

Thoughts?

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[caduceusoncall]

Sorry to interject, but what you just said is something I have struggled with for a long time. I built tools much like you described, under the assurance they would never be made into weapons. Blatant lies, but I knew that to a degree, I just wanted to believe they truly meant well.

I can't tell you whether or not your decisions or usage of your tools are correct, I don't know the situation. But I have learned something that I hope can help you now: If your tools save more lives than they take, it's a matter of deciding whether or not that's a sacrifice you are willing to make.

To answer that question, sometimes you have to ask your soul, not just your mind.

[american_alien]

Oh. Hey.

No, it's cool. At least, it's cool for me. And I appreciate the advice. I

Have the advantage of knowing that I'll always be able to choose how they're used. But it's not like I'm perfect either, you know? And it could do a lot of harm if I make the wrong decision.

But that doesn't change anything you said.

It's either go big... or stay home.