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[american_alien]

So I thought I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I worked really hard to get to where I am and what I'm doing but...

After talking to people, talking to lots of people from all over, I'm not so sure anymore. I think I might have been thinking too small, but it feels weird to think of it like that. Like I'm limited MYSELF, if that makes any sense. I mean, it's not like we have a lot of money and I worked really hard to get the scholarships to get here in the first place.

But I'm not sure if I'm just letting this trip run away with me or if I'm finally seeing more clearly now that I've actually gone out and seen just how big the world is.

Thoughts?

Comments

[insistent]

...So you don't have control of it. You didn't do it intentionally and you're not going to do it again so the best way to ensure that is learning to use it properly, isn't it?

[american_alien]

I didn't have control of it. I do now. Not that I didn't almost burn down the barn a few times.

But that doesn't give that man back his arms.

[insistent]

No it doesn't.

But it also means you won't make the same mistake again. It's not balanced by any means, but you can't let your mistakes keep you from continuing to try.

[american_alien]

But I could just be a veterinarian.

No loss of limbs. No danger of hurting anyone. I can use my brain and help plenty of helpless creatures.

But lots of people can be veterinarians. And there are dangerous things to do in the world that I could do without fear.

[insistent]

You could, and you could save lots of animals, but can you really live with the fact you have the ability to help people and do nothing? I meam. you may not succeed every time, but the time you do succeed, who knows how many lives you'll be able to save?

Yes, you may hurt people or not be able to save everyone. That's a given and something every hero faces. Do you think cops and firefighters don't deal with the same question, but they still go on and do their jobs and do what they can within their own limitations.

[american_alien]

Hero, huh?

I don't know if I'm cut out to be a hero.

And I don't know. Now, I don't think so.

[insistent]

And you know the best heroes are the ones who aren't trying to be a hero. They're just doing whatever they can.

You'll never know unless you try, right?